face it

As you might have read in my last post, I have this extremely huge fear of being infront of a crowd ...and then...I realized something, it might not be because of the hugeness of a crowd, instead, it's the judgements and critics of others! That's what I'm REALLY afraid of...Afraid of what they might say...

THEN...

something hit me...not something new...but a known-fact..a fact that most of us forget...

No matter what others say, that does not define who you are or your capabilities...Take criticisms in a possitive way...Just do your best, and the leave the rest to Him ^-^

a bad craving

I crave for someone to make me feel special, cared for and loved...to make me feel whole again..to fill that empty space where he used to be in...

But a great part of my sanity keeps on telling me that I have to get over this craving for it will surely do me no good. Yeah, the feeling would be great but then what about the long run? I'd just end up wanting someone for that stupid reason which means that even if I dont have any feelings for them anymore, I wouldn't be able to let go and end up making both of us miserable.

So right now, I'm trying my hardest to live life without someone constantly reminding me of how special I am or how much he cares for me.......

and WHAM! it hits me! I've come to realize that I've always had it already, I just somehow failed to notice until now that He is just there, cheering me on every step of the way...All I need to do is listen to Him

I just need to remember that and I'm sure I'd get over this crazy craving in no time

~sheydilee~