After countless moments of reflecting how I don’t need him in my life and trying to get over those times that the emptiness-slash-loneliness had been devouring me from within, I can finally say that I’ve moved on…Moved on from that pit of longing that I placed myself in when I decided to let him go. Knowing that if I didn’t get my thoughts together, I could never have gotten away from that place.
Yes, I admit that I still feel the loneliness at times and that I constantly daydream of means to make you jealous and regretful for why you just let me slip away, evil isn’t it? Hahaha…But you cant blame me for that’s the only state which I can make you terribly envious and hurt just like how I felt during those times that I’ve found out how you’ve been, no offense, a flirt to my very best friend. Yes, I’ve been holding to this grunge on you because of all the things I’ve heard my best friend say. I mean, do you know how hard it is to simply reply to you when you text me with that cheery-with-a-smiley texts of yours without being moody? Or those times when I do decide to act normal through text then you just reply me with a bland ‘ahh…ok.’?!? So basically, I just don’t reply to you at all, trust me, that takes a whole lot of self control on my part! Why? For months I’ve been accustomed to replying to you no matter what! Regretting how much load I spent afterwards! But, right now, I don’t hold on to those feelings any more, erm…or should I say that I’m letting go of it bit by bit. I’m fine now but I think the distance we have right now is best. Time will come when I or uhm we would be able to see each other face-face and feel no bitterness anymore
Huhai, wow, that was such a speech! Eheheheh…Don’t worry, I haven’t lost it! (Well not yet! Hahaha) If there is anyone reading this right now, I apologize for the super sappy-slash-whatever paragraph above. (It’s dedicated to him actually…notice all the ‘you’s’ ^-^)
I know it’s pretty long but am happy to say that this will be the last dramatic post I’ll be making dedicated to that half-wit guy out there… I just felt like this is the perfect time to let it all out and a HUGE step for me to let go and start moving forward(wee…meet the Robinsons! Hardiharhar!) and if there would be another post about the guy, am hoping it wouldn’t be as serious-slash-dramatic-slash-negative as this one..maybe good even! ^-^
Well, am back to the crazy me again so I guess that’s my the cue to say
Byeboo!
~sheydilee~